10/21/2011

So, today, I was digging up all of my previous employment from the present all the way back to 1997. So I could apply for a job else where. I discovered that I in the last 14 years I have had 13 jobs. Although I have had a few longer term jobs here and there, the avereage is staggering. Just thinking about the werakage of my life at that moment made me so sick... Some times I think I am chained to this wreakage forever. Then I think I might just get beyond it. Then of course I land here in the middle, and I think, "Jeez, I dunno?" It is these moments that I am scared to death. Will I forever be a wandering loser? Will I find that this big black spot on my lung is cancer? Ya, I am scared to death.